Daughters (sequel to The Coach House)

Chapter 1 - Pretenses

Marie combed through her closet for just the right clothes to pack—nothing too fancy, nothing too casual, and definitely nothing from the back of her closet that she hadn't worn since the end of WWII four years earlier. She carefully considered the clothing, holding each piece up to her body in front of the mirror and imagining how she would feel wearing it, how others would perceive her wearing it. Everything had to be well thought out for this trip—her life was about to change.

 

Jonathan Brooks, her father, a man she had met for the first time just two months earlier, was going to arrive at her coach house apartment in less than twelve hours to take her to meet his family—her newfound family—in St. Charles, Illinois for the Thanksgiving holiday. It was a ten-hour car ride from her home in Atchison, Kansas, and Jonathan promised her they could talk about anything and everything on the way.

 

Anything and everything in twenty-four-year-old Marie's mind meant nothing was off limits, and she intended to take full advantage of the opportunity. Jonathan had been married with three children when he had met Marie's now deceased mother, and Marie knew very little about their affair. She wanted to know how they met, what they did together, how long the affair lasted and what caused their breakup. Most of all, she wanted to know what attracted them to each other in the first place. After all, Jonathan was a Negro, and her mother was white, a rather unlikely pairing in 1923 Chicago.

 

Discovering who her father was also meant discovering her own ethnicity. With olive skin, nut brown eyes, and hair the color of raven’s wings, Marie could easily pass for white…and did for the first twenty-four years of her life. If it weren’t for the guilt and self-loathing she endured from it, she would continue to pass for white, because that would be easier on so many levels. But her strong need to know who she really was and where she belonged drove her to find the answers, the truths about herself, and she was hopeful her father would be able to give her valuable insight.

 

Not having made much progress with packing, Marie took a quick dinner break. She thought about Jonathan's family as she ate—his wife Claire, their three grown sons, a daughter-in-law and two grandchildren. What were the chances she would be accepted by all of them, and what kind of relationships would emerge from their first meeting? She didn't know.

 

Marie's best friend Karen, who had offered to help her pack, arrived just as Marie was finishing her sandwich. Marie and Karen had met a year and a half earlier, the first week Marie had arrived in Atchison, only days after leaving her home in Chicago. Karen had been a godsend helping her settle into a new home and lifestyle those first few months, and despite their differences, it didn't take long for the two of them to become fast friends.

 

Karen's matter-of-fact values caused the two women to be worlds apart when it came to Marie's ethnicity dilemma. If roles were reversed, Marie was certain Karen would accept it without any effort to change things—accept the ambiguity of being biracial, accept the bigotry in the world, and the lack of self-esteem Marie feared plagued most Negros. Karen, Marie was sure, would aim low and settle for mediocrity. Not Marie. Marie had more idealistic goals in mind.

 

Karen, a year younger than Marie and widowed for the past three years, walked into Marie's coach house apartment holding a bag from the clothing shop she owned and handed it to Marie.

 

"What’s this?"

 

"Just a little going away present. Open it."

 

Marie pulled out a teal shirtwaist dress and matching short cropped jacket. "Karen…this is gorgeous." She tore off her clothes and slipped on the dress.

 

"Like it?"

 

"Like it? I love it!"

 

Marie hugged her friend. "I don’t know what to say. Thank you! I think I'll wear it on the first day."

 

Karen shot Marie a sheepish grin. "Hoped you’d say that. It looks great on you, hon, but then everything does."

 

The two women spent the afternoon picking out the right wardrobe for Marie’s two-week visit; skirts and blouses, several pairs of Capri trousers, a variety of sweaters, and nightclothes.

 

"What about the horses?" Karen asked.

 

"What about them?" Jonathan owned a horse ranch. He and his family were skilled riders.

 

"You'll need some riding outfits."

 

"Shoot. I completely forgot about that." She went to her closet and pulled out two more outfits. Once Marie became aware of her father's interest in horses, she had started taking riding lessons and bought her own horse shortly afterwards—a three-year-old champagne gelding she named JB, after her father.

 

She put the riding outfits in her suitcase and looked up at Karen. "I think that does it."

 

Marie and Karen talked well into the night over a few glasses of wine, something they did often.

 

"Well, I’m packed and ready to go, but honestly…how does one prepare for something like this?"

 

"What about your cat?" Marie's cat, Sheana, was sitting on top of her suitcase.

 

"She senses I'm going away and doesn't like it. The Edwards children have offered to take care of her." Julia and Wayne Edwards were Marie's landlords and lived in 'the big house' with their three children.

 

"She'll miss you."

 

Marie nodded.

 

"And so will I," Karen added.

 

When time for Karen to leave, the two women hugged, a little longer than usual, before saying good night. No final words were spoken; none were required—just heartfelt smiles going in both directions in honor of Marie who was about to engage upon what could turn out to be the most important visit of her life.

 

***

 

Marie prayed the last gulp of Pepto-Bismol left in the bottle would be enough to settle her stomach. Her head hurt, too, and now she wished she hadn't had that last glass of wine the night before.

 

Jonathan arrived right on time. Tall and well-built, the robins egg blue Argyle sweater he wore beneath his brown Cashmere coat was a nice contrast to his café au lait skin. After giving her a fatherly hug, he glanced around her second floor apartment and said, "You did pretty well for yourself, kiddo. I’m proud of you."

 

She responded with a smile. The coach house was situated twenty-five yards behind the main house, a three-story Victorian occupied by the Edwardses. "This place has been my sanctuary for the past year and a half. I was lucky to find it."

 

The drawn window between the limo driver and the back seat enabled them to talk in private. Jonathan opened the conversation. "Well, Marie, let me start by telling you about my family, and perhaps more important for you, my roots…our roots." Marie knew his opening statement was the essence of…everything. "My father was a mulatto. He was born a slave in 1843. His father, that would be my grandfather, was white and owned a cotton plantation in South Carolina. His mother was one of Grandfather’s house slaves."

 

His pause allowed Marie the opportunity for that to sink in.

 

"Are you familiar with the one-drop rule?"

 

Marie nodded.

 

"So no matter how much or how little Negro blood you have in you, according to the one-drop rule, which is a white man’s rule by the way, you’re considered a Negro." His words penetrated into her conscious. Hearing someone say it, he in particular, gave it new meaning. "I wanted to get that out in the open right away. It’s important you know who you are."

 

Marie nodded.

 

"My father was raised by his slave mother along side his two half-sisters. He wasn't allowed to go to school, of course, so he relied on the white children in the household to teach him to read and write; something that was against the law, but they did it anyway, and it was something his dark-skinned half-sisters were completely denied."

 

While she knew skin color really did matter, she didn't understand it and didn't want to believe it. It bothered her to hear him say it so casually, like that's the way it is…so be it.

 

"So your grandmother had two Negro daughters before your father was born?"

 

"Yes."

 

"So was she married?"

 

"I'm not sure. My father wasn't sure either."

 

"Okay. Go on."

 

"In the mid 1860s, shortly after slavery was abolished, my grandfather gave each of his sons, including my father, several horses and a piece of land. My father made the most of it and became a fairly successful horse breeder down there."

 

"How old was he then?"

 

"Early twenties. He worked the ranch and stayed a bachelor until well into his forties. That's when he met and married my mother, a Negro in her twenties, and I was born the next year." He paused, then shrugged. "It's never been clear to me which came first—their marriage or my conception.

 

"Anyway, my mother died of tuberculosis when I was ten. My father died twelve years later when he was sixty-nine, and I inherited the business." He turned to look at Marie. "Are you following this? Should I slow down?"

 

"No, please go on. But tell me, what happened to your grandmother?"

 

"She died somewhere in her thirties, on the plantation, before my father was given the land. Anyway, so I tried to maintain the horse business down there for a few years but struggled at it, and I wasn't a very happy person, shall we say. My white half-brothers on neighboring ranches tormented me every chance they got, and between that and well, the general bigotry of the South, I decided to move my ranch to St. Charles. That was in 1915 when I was twenty-five."

 

"You didn't mention school. What kind of education did you get?"

 

"I was able to go through the eighth grade."

 

"That's amazing."

 

"What is?"

 

"That you got as far as you did with only an eighth grade education."

 

Jonathan chuckled. "What it meant was I did most things the hard way."

 

"How's that?"

 

"I spent a lot of time in libraries, and the libraries where I was allowed in had limited resources, believe me. I learned accounting and everything else about running a business from books. But even then, when I arrived in St. Charles I still had a lot to learn."

 

"Were you accepted more in St. Charles?"

 

"I moved to St. Charles because I had heard from someone there was a nice mix of people there, including some Negros, but mostly Lithuanians, Native Americans and Germans. But I found out very quickly no one up north wanted to buy horses from a colored man, so I hired a front man for the business, a white front man. And for years, my customers didn’t even know I existed."

 

So he pretended, too.

 

"His name is Zach. He’s still with me as is his son. Well, Zach is from the South and knows a little bit about Negro culture. His people were poor, and he found himself living on the outskirts of colored neighborhoods his whole life. Well, Zach and I got to know each other pretty well that first year, and he got it in his head I needed a good woman in my life." Jonathan smirked. "I ignored him for the longest time, and then one day this pretty young light-skinned girl shows up on my doorstep. Come to find out that Zach had sent for her to come for a visit from some small little town in Mississippi, and well, the rest is history."

 

"Does your wife have any…white in her background?"

 

"She’s not sure. She was raised by a colored family, but never knew who her real parents were. She suspects she’s mixed."

 

Marie nodded. "Please…go on."

 

"Once my business got established, I slowly started exposing myself to the various horse buyers and was eventually accepted, at least I was in the horse community."

 

"But not by others?"

 

"My neighbors were another story. They didn't know what quite to make of me. I managed to buy this property without a realtor, and to be honest, I think the previous owner sold it to me to get back at his neighbors."

 

"Because you're a Negro?"

 

Jonathan laughed. "All of a sudden I was there, and it was too late for them to do anything about it. Anyway, I didn't give them any ammunition to lodge any complaints against me. I had the best kept home, barns and property. I obeyed every stinkin' law, no matter how trivial. Luckily our ranches are spread pretty far apart, so they don't bother me much. There's a couple down a couple of ranches who are somewhat neighborly. And then, of course, the Feinsteins. But you know about them."

 

Gregory Feinstein was a Vice President with the National Bank of Chicago and a neighbor and good friend of Jonathan's. Marie had discovered earlier that Jonathan had asked Greg to oversee her college tuition funding after her mother died. Years later when Marie's husband threatened to expose Jonathan, Marie went through Greg to alert him.

 

Jonathan let out a heavy sigh.

 

"You sound tired. Do you want to stop for a bit?"

 

"No, this is important stuff. Let's go on. After dealing with me directly for a couple of years, one of my customers invited me to join the Central Union Club in Chicago. I was its only Negro member." He looked at Marie. "That's where I met your mother."

 

Anxious to hear this part of his story, Marie took in a deep breath of air and let it out slowly. Now that the time had come, she was nervous to hear the details.

 

"It was a male-only club, and Sophia was the person who greeted members as they entered." A wistful expression swept across his face. "She was so beautiful. She had a striking figure, emerald eyes and olive skin as smooth as porcelain. I was completely taken in by her, and after we talked for the first time, well, I couldn't get her out of my mind."

 

Marie thought back to the items she found in her mother's memory box after she died—the matchbook from the Central Union Club and the photograph of her with the other men, one of whom was Jonathan, although she didn't know that until recently.

 

"Well, I frequented the Club often after that first meeting, and it wasn't long before we started an affair." He glanced at Marie. "It was wrong, and I'm not going to make any excuses for myself. It was dead wrong, and it wasn't fair to Claire and our three sons."

 

"You had three sons by that time?"

 

"Yes…three sons."

 

"Go on."

 

"It didn’t take long. I fell in love with your mother. It was mutual, and it was intense."

 

"And Claire knew nothing of what was going on?"

 

"No." He let out an audible sigh. "Let me tell you about Claire and the boys. She had the twins right away. Evan and Arthur. They’re thirty now. Both went to college. Neither one ever married. Evan teaches cultural studies at the University of Missouri. Arthur is a lawyer on the south side of Chicago. Most of his clients are colored illiterates who can’t afford a lawyer. Our youngest son, Melvin, went to college to be an accountant, but when that didn’t pan out, he decided to come work for me. Best accountant I’ve ever had." His face beamed. "You’ll meet them all."

 

"I can’t wait," Marie said through a sincere smile, her stomach doing a series of tight somersaults. "So what do they know about me?"

 

"I told Claire about you right after our meeting with Greg in September. To be completely honest with you, Marie, I don’t think she was all that surprised."

 

"Really?"

 

"Yes, really. Our relationship is somewhat complicated, and…well, some day I'll share that with you, but not now. There are too many other things... I need to take a break. Can we talk about you for awhile?"

 

Marie nodded.

 

"You went through life having no reason to believe you were anything but white. Am I right?"

 

Marie nodded.

 

"What was your first inclination?"

 

Marie relayed the story of Mrs. Hollingsworth, a southern-bred uppity customer who had confronted Marie where she was a manager at Marshall Field's flagship store in downtown Chicago. The arrogant Mrs. Hollingsworth had referred to Marie as ‘some half-breed nigger girl.’ Marie's mother had revealed to her very little about her father, and certainly not the fact he was colored. That incident had been what triggered a desperate search for her father.

 

Jonathan gave her a heartfelt look. "I am so sorry you had to go through that." He reached over and took his daughter’s hand. "I’ve thought so much about you over the years. I’ve had struggles with my race, too. But not like you. Everyone can see I’m a Negro, so there’s no question about which public bathroom I have to use, so to speak. But you have different issues. I know. Believe me, I know. And I give you my word, now that I’m in your life, I’ll help you through them as much as I can."

 

Marie responded, her heart dancing its beats. "You can’t know how much that would mean to me, Jona…I mean, Dad." When she had first met him, he had asked her to call him "Dad" if she was comfortable with it. She wasn't at all comfortable with it, but thought it the right thing to do. "More than anything, I want to know more about the Negro culture, my culture. I want to know how I can be in both worlds and be accepted. I want to stop pretending to be something I’m not. I want to…"

 

"Hold on, my dear daughter. Slow down." His smile gave her comfort. "It has taken a hundred years for bigotry to become what it is today in this country, and we’re not going to change it in the next two weeks." He methodically patted her hand while he stared out the window, apparently lost in thought. "You can’t change people, Marie." He turned towards her. "I think you know that. You can educate them, enlighten them, show them new ways." His gaze turned back toward the window. "And then hope they change. But you can’t change them."

 

"I know, but what I'm doing is ignoring who I really am, and that's tearing me apart."

 

"I’ll never forget what our minister said once. He said, ‘God created us different to understand the need for each other.’ It took me a long while to accept that explanation, and there are days I still have my doubts, but it’s something I hope I never lose sight of." He gave her a loving look. "We’ll try to sort this out, I promise you. But you have to realize we’re dealing with people with limited and usually flawed views of our people. And they’re scared of us, so why would they accept us?"

 

"I know all that, really I do." She almost called him Dad again, but the more she thought about it, the more she knew she wasn’t ready.

 

"Let me ask you something. And try to answer this as honestly as you can. What did you think about Negroes before you had any idea you were one?"

 

Marie let her mind to go back in time. "Where I lived, the only Negroes I saw were from a distance. In fact, I remember the first one I ever saw was in the restaurant where my mother worked. The kitchen door swung open, and I saw this bent-over black-skinned man washing dishes. It was so foreign to me, I didn’t know what to think. And then later on…well, they weren’t in my school, not in college either. Not where I worked. My only exposure to them was in this one jazz club Richard and I sometimes went to."

 

Richard Marchetti was Marie's estranged husband who she had left a year and a half earlier after she had walked in on a meeting in their home with some of his so-called business associates. Richard, who was tall, disarmingly handsome, and a shrewd operator, had become so incensed at her appearance, he caused her to fall down the basement stairs. That was when she fled for her life.

 

"Tell me how you met Richard."

 

She relayed the story about how he caught her eye and flirted with her while she was dressing a window display at Marshall Fields. He had enticed her into meeting him for a cup of coffee.

 

He shifted his weight in his seat. "And what if he had been colored? Would you have met him for coffee then?"

 

"Of course not." The words flew from her mouth too fast.

 

Jonathan raised an eyebrow. "Okay, now tell me how you plan to change peoples’ minds."

 

Father and daughter held each other’s gaze for several seconds before he rolled down the window separating the driver from them and said, "Pull over when you can, Walter. Let’s stop for lunch."

 

Walter, a thin middle-aged white man dressed in a black chauffeur’s outfit, pulled over to a rest stop and proceeded to take things out of the trunk. Halfway through lunch, another car pulled into the parking lot. A family of four walked toward the only other picnic table. Two young boys emerged from the car, sat down on the benches and proceeded to roll a ball across the table to each other. The parents followed after them with a picnic basket in tow, but when they saw Marie, Jonathan and Walter, they gathered up the boys and scurried back to the car.

 

"Case in point?" Jonathan asked.

 

Marie pursed her lips and nodded. Walter gave Marie and Jonathan a discerning look, but said nothing. He didn’t have to.

 

"Aside from not being that surprised, how did Claire react when you told her about me, if you don't mind my asking."

 

"At first…well, she didn't speak to me for a few days. Then the first question she asked was what year you were born so she would have that perspective I guess." He paused. "She’s a wonderful woman. You’ll like her."

 

Marie nodded. "I’m sure I will."

 

"I told the kids shortly afterwards. I have to admit, well, they were pretty shocked. Melvin took it the worst. His first wife, she was white, ran off with another man, a white man, shortly after they were married, so he wasn’t very understanding. In fact, he didn’t talk to me for a whole week. I told him he could be mad at me all he wanted, but what happened happened, and it’s time to move on." He paused. "He’ll come around. It might take awhile."

 

"Will they all be there when we arrive?"

 

"No, just Claire to start. I wanted the two of you to get to know each other first."

 

"Is she over the initial shock now? I mean, well, I know she's not okay with it, but is she…?"

 

"Is she still upset with me?"

 

"Something like that."

 

"She's trying very hard, let's say." He paused. "Tomorrow, everyone will be there for Sunday supper." He seemed to be steering away from talking about Claire's reaction to his bombshell news. "Do you think you’re up for it?"

 

Marie smiled. "Yes, I think so." She thought for several seconds. "Do I have a choice?"

 

Father and daughter laughed effortlessly, like they had known each other for a long time. Then tears welled up in Marie’s eyes.

 

"What’s wrong?" he asked.

 

She swiped away the tears. "I don’t know, really. I think I’m just so happy to be here, I can hardly contain myself. But I'm nervous, too."

 

"Well, contain yourself real quick, my dear, 'cause we’re here."

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